A.J. Spurlock

I take some things too seriously.

I know, hard to believe, right? It’s true. Chalk it up to being over-analytical, a bit selfish, or pride. Personally, my money is on pride.

I’m not sure if it’s a general lack of maturity on my behalf, or if I just really am this selfish. I think it comes from a desire to keep things simple. See, the truth is, I don’t know nearly as much as I like to let on at times. It has become far too easy to “put my best foot forward.” I’m still working on the whole “being real” concept. Over the years I’ve built these protective tendencies, if you will. It’s amazing how easy it is to make yourself sound more impressive than you are. You don’t even have to lie per-say. All you need to know is what to share, what to keep to yourself, and how to say it. With a little common sense, a general knowledge of things, and an aptitude to learn fast & think on your feet… and you can spin just about anything.

Now, I’m not saying I do this often, but I’d be lying if I said it doesn’t happen from time to time. There is this deep set desire to be needed & respected. It often forces me to be reluctant to share my knowledge, my skills, or anything else I may have to offer… out of a irrational fear that I will know longer be relevant.

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